Do you ever feel like no matter what you do you just can't win? As you can probably tell from my blogs for the past few weeks, things have been pretty tough for me lately. Right now I wish that I was the only person who had an effect on how my life goes and on my own happiness. But the truth is, that we all have very complicated relationships in our lives that have a huge bearing on our overall well-being, and it will never be completely under our own control. I wish that right now time could stop for my family while I finish school, then we could just pick up where we left off as though we had not gone through 3.5 years. Unfortunately that cannot happen, and life has to continue for my family right now while I cannot be with them most of the time. There have been those that have suggested stopping school for a while to take care of my family, but I know that that would be the worst thing that I could do. I'm here right now for them, and as intense as the struggles can get, I have to keep plugging away until I can get finished. It's the only thing that makes sense to me. I have to be the strong one for my family and do all that I can to be a strength for them whether I am here during the week, or home with them on the weekends.
